Archive | February, 2010

Job Search…

26 Feb

The job that I have applied to and have heard from is at a church in Arlington Txas called Fielder Road Baptist Church. I have visited their web site and by what I see so far this would be great for me. I love what I see so far. I love the vision they have for their church, and if I am hired my church. It would be interesting moving to Texas, but it would be work. I am going to leave the library in a couple minutes and think about this and my writing on the walk home. Suppose I do get the job in Texas. It would mean leaving behind my family and friends I have here for a place I know no one. I know that I have done it before. I moved all the way to California without knowing one person there. Please pray for me and these things…

Friday February 26, 2010 3:30PM

26 Feb

The filmmaking workshop that I was going to attend tomorrow has been postponed becasue the speaker is snowed in. I have applied to several jobs, all out of state. I have heard from one of them. A church in Texas. I would be over the video production for the church. I hope I get it, I guess. I don’t know about moving to Texas though. Tonight I have the Bible Study with some friends. Tomorrow I really don’t know what I will do. I am at the library now. I came here to do some writing but that has not happened. I will leave here shortly. I hope I can find a job soon.

February 23, 2010 Afternoon

23 Feb

I am trying to decide what to do today, before it’s too late to do anything. I could go to the IHOP downtown and get free pancakes. I could also go to the State Museum afterwards since I have passes. I don’t know if I want to go so far for pancakes and if I do not go to IHOP then I will not go to the museum today. I could go to the library and work on my writing. Maybe I should do this. Maybe I will do this. I have not decided. I would love to hear back from one of the places I applied at this morning for a job. I really want to work again, but finding a job is not easy. Especially since there’s nothing near me. Why do I have to live so far from a city. Living out in the middle of nowhere has its advantages but finding work is not one of them. Maybe if I were in Atlanta or Nashville, or Los Angeles (again). I have applied to several openings but all of them are in other states.

Poem…

23 Feb

I sit to write blank screen with no reply, you think I have some notion of interest in you but you’re not my type so let me be, we can be friends but when we meet again at Wal-Mart or out about let there be no doubt that we’re just friends and we never will be anything but…

Poem…

23 Feb

Morning comes, alarm so loud, crowding out dreams for what seems to be Life. Can I survive, each day new troubles, new worries like snow flurries when you least expect a tragedy comes and trumps all your good cheer. Were we so high and mighty with our days so planned? Now I stand so weak and waiting- not dating- single always ready to mingle with the cute girls. I mean ladies of course. Wait, noon is soon upon me and yet what is required of me? I hate to be the bearer of the truth but I really hate to be where you think I should be. I have dreams, it seems, like rocket ships to take me out of this place. Not to outer space but to a place where my dreams will grow like a garden full of hope.

Tuesday Feb 23 2010

23 Feb

I know what I want to do but I just have to decide what to focus on right now. I have begun looking for film and/ or television work anywhere. I would not be able to take it, of course, unless the job would provide transportation and other important things. Before this week I did not consider this because I had given up on working in those fields until the end of last year. It was this week that I realized that the best thing to do is to expand where I search for jobs. I mean I am not going to expand the types of jobs since I have more confidence in myself than anyone except my mom. I want to finish the TV script that I have been writing and I want to work on the idea for the Script contest (Film), and I want to search for jobs. But what do I do now? That is one thing I have to figure out on my own. I do not think I will go anywhere tonight. I might go to IHOP for the free pancakes but I really doubt that since it would be so far to walk and it’s only pacakes. My new shoes are here and I think they are great. I will not wear them when it is wet outside. I will wear them only when I am going to somewhere important. SO, not often. I am so sick of some people asking me how my job search is going. It’s one person that annoys me everytime I see him. Retail? He can go work retail, but then again they would not hire him. He’s interesting at times to talk to but he seems somewhat off… I am more willing to move back to Los Angeles now… I mean this place is terrible. I am bored most of the time. I miss living in a city. I miss being able to take the city bus to a free movie screening most nights of the week and working some if not often. I am certain that people would have reasons for me not to move back to Los Angeles and I can think of one big reason, but I will not allow people to get in my way. I will not allow people to get me to think less of my self. I have had enough of people saying that reaching for your dreams is a bad thing when they have theirs. I am annoyed by “church” people who are not poor who say that you should be happy where you are, when they are so miserable despite where they are. I read a paper that was sent to me about the tithe. I will never pay a tithe unless I agree with where the money is being spent. I do want to be a good steward. What I want to do for a living? I want to write for television, maybe film as well. I also want to be a photographer I would not be opposed to acting. I would also be open to directing, editnig, cinematographer, camera operator… I have studied for about six years film and video production and photography and writing. It annoys me when someone who received a degree at home in photography thinks he is better than me. It also annoys me when people think that I am not good enough to do more than retail or fast food. I don’t care where you think I should be and don’t try to say it’s where God would have me be or some lame reason like that. I am going to try to focus and plan my day…

Saturday…

20 Feb

I have not done the writing that I had desired. I either was not in the mood or had something to do. I need to go to the library this week for several days and just write. Otherwise it will not get done…

Tonight…

19 Feb

I am going to take the night and not write. I mean I am going to think about my script and other projects that I am working on but not actually write anything. For one thing I am tired. I don’t know why but I am just tired. I’ve had so much to think about tonight. I need to decide what I should do and if I should move or not. If I do move anywhere it will not be anytime soon….

Script

18 Feb

Todat and tomorrow I’m going to work on a TV script that I’ve been writing today and wrok on ideas for a script writing contest: http://massify.com/partnerships/lionsgate/makingcomedy/concept/pitch

Hello…

18 Feb

I am writing a script, a TV script. I am doing well on it. Now I have found out about a contest to pitch an idea for a movie. I am going to work on that as well. I know I need to focus on my writing career at this moment. I need to be professional and patient. Yeah, like that word patient is just one of those words that annoys me right now. I mean can I be patient? Right now, at this moment, I have no life. Not that I really care, but that’s how it is right now. I am going to Ignite on St. Andrews Road tomorrow night. Friday I have a Bible Study with a couple of friends and then a bon fire with Ignite. Saturday I might hang out with a new friend and then go to Columbia After Dark’s Christian Singles Dance. I plan to write when I am not doing these things. If anyone out there that reads this wants to chat (IM/ message me on Facebook or Myspace) or hang out in real life just send me a message. I am guessing however that only a couple of people read this… oh well how lame am I? Don’t answer that.