Archive | April, 2010

Tuesday Afternoon…

27 Apr

I did some laundry yesterday, which I needed to do. I did not go to Columbia After Dark because it looked like it might rain. I am not going anywhere today because it might rain today. I am working on a list of things I need to get done for my career. I know that I can not do all of these things right now, but I need goals. I am going to look at this list and consider what I can do now. My focus at this moment is a career. I suppose I should have had this way of thinking about things before. I mean I should have focused on my career instead of anything else. I have focused on anything but my career most of the time. I have decided not to do the hand shake or hugs thing with most people. That’s all fake. I can bump knuckles or just nod. I will not be as open about myself to people until I know them for at least 6 months and only if they gain my trust. I shall not be so quick to trust. I have stuff do get done so I will limit the things that I am involved in that do not relate to my career. I will go to Columbia After Dark some but only some. I will go to the dances with Columbia After Dark when I have a ride. I will go to Ignite on Thursday nights and House Church on Friday nights. I will go to Trinity Baptist on Sunday mornings most of the time, as long as I have a ride, but not for Sunday School. I might go to Inside Up on Tuesday nights if the weather is good and I have nothing else to do. I will not be going to Metro at First Baptist of Columbia: too far for me to walk. I will not walk to anything unless it’s something career related or something that really want to go to. I have a new way of approaching things since I had a conversation with someone at Trinity. I realized then that I need to focus on a career and nothing else, so say thanks to you. Your wisdom allowed me to see something I was missing all of this time.

Tuesday Night…

21 Apr

I am convinced that difficult times are ahead. I am living in a moment that is testing me. I suppose you can say this is one of those moments where what I believe becomes practice. I don’t feel well at the moment but that feeling will pass. My hope is to not lose focus upon God. What is done to me by others is not something that I should allow to take my focus away from my Creator.

I don’t know what to think at this moment. There’s so much to take into consideration. There is so much to pray about. My prayer is that I don’t make the wrong decisions. I am not going to decide tonight because I will make the wrong decision tonight.

I want to be so honest about what I am going through, but I lack the words to explain these things. Random thoughts drift through my mind and I find myself debating the idea of membership. I mean what’s the point? I want to grow but I feel that I may end up drifting away in these next six months. I fear that I will drift away.

But you must say the things that are consistent with sound teaching. 2 Older men are to be level headed, worthy of respect, sensible, and sound in faith, love, and endurance. 3 In the same way, older women are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers, not addicted to much wine. ⌊They are⌋ to teach what is good, 4 so they may encourage the young women to love their husbands and to love their children, 5 to be self-controlled, pure, homemakers, kind, and submissive to their husbands, so that God’s message will not be slandered.
6 In the same way, encourage the young men to be self-controlled 7 in everything. Make yourself an example of good works with integrity and dignity in your teaching. 8 Your message is to be sound beyond reproach, so that the opponent will be ashamed, having nothing bad to say about us.
Titus 2:1-8 (HCSB)

Tuesday Afternoon…

20 Apr

With the dawn comes hope for a new day, with redemption comes hope for a new way. I suppose that we all have things that we deal with day to day and it is easier to tell others what they need to change then it is to change in ourselves what needs to be changed. My goal is to allow change in my life.

I am convinced that the way church and Christianity are perceived needs changing. I mean we need to get back to the scripture. I think it is odd that we sing that we need to get back to the heart of worship when I wonder if we were ever there before. If we live according to God’s Word, God’s Word alone, then we shall leave the enemy with nothing to hold against us and our witness will be a blessing to those that see us. If we have the glory within us that is eternal, a shinning light, and we being transformed by the Holy Spirit then we have nothing to fear. If we have the light and focus on the light, if we focus on remaining in Him (Christ Jesus), then the darkness is no threat to us.

If only the body would live according to the Word instead of the world. If we, as one Body, would be without greed (instead being selfless) then we would not be put to shame by the world. If those who live according to the world can help those in need then how much more should we that live according to the Spirit?

I’m not certain what I will do today since it is suppose to rain. I am going to Trinity Baptist tonight. Last night was amazing. I rejoice in this fellowship of believers.

Tomorrow night I will go to Trinity again. Thursday is Ignite and Friday is House Church. I might join the hand bells at Trinity. I don’t know because I am afraid that I will not be good enough.

I am still looking for work and I still think about my debt but my goal now is not to worry about these things or anything. I give God the credit for anything good that comes from me and the other stuff is all me.

I would love to do stand-up comedy again. I know that I would ned to develop a routine but even if I had a routine I have nowhere to do stand-up. I would also like to get back to writing more. Writing poetry and short stories as well as more scripts. I would not be opposed to acting again. I want to be a filmmaker in general. I know what I have a passion for and now I will give all of this over to God and allow Him to work in these areas.

And who will harm you if you are deeply committed to what is good? 14 But even if you should suffer for righteousness, you are blessed. Do not fear what they fear or be disturbed, 15 but honor the Messiah as Lord in your hearts. Always be ready to give a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you. 16 However, do this with gentleness and respect, keeping your conscience clear, so that when you are accused, those who denounce your Christian life will be put to shame. 17 For it is better to suffer for doing good, if that should be God’s will, than for doing evil.

18 For Christ also suffered for sins once for all,
the righteous for the unrighteous,
that He might bring you to God,
after being put to death in the fleshly realm
but made alive in the spiritual realm.
1 Peter 3:13-18 (HCSB)

Monday Late Late Night…

20 Apr

I will have to keep this short because I am not really awake. I could be dreaming all of this. Anyway, God is great. Tonight was an example of the Holy Spirit moving. I pray right now for the people that gathered tonight and the person that gave me a ride to Trinity Baptist. I lift these people to God. I pray this in writing because I am not good at praying. This is my way of praying.

So, God I praise you for what you have allowed to take place tonight. I could not have imagined things happening the way they did. God, May you fill me with great Joy.

I am so tired right now. I hope that these words form sentences.

My hope is to focus on Christ: remaining in Him. I know that if I can focus on that then all the other things will be taken care of, and I do not have to worry about those things. All I need to do is to trust and obey.

Praise the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the God of all comfort. 4 He comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any kind of affliction, through the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5 For as the sufferings of Christ overflow to us, so through Christ our comfort also overflows. 6 If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation. If we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which is experienced in ⌊your⌋ endurance of the same sufferings that we suffer. 7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that as you share in the sufferings, so ⌊you will share⌋ in the comfort.
2 Cor 1:3-7 (HCSB)

Monday Afternoon…

19 Apr

I have worked out at home and I mean it when I say it was a work out. I started working out to the Biggest Loser Last Chance DVD. I was using the Yoga and Boot Camp DVDs but I decided to try something different. I hope to get in shape but my legs have been sore from all of the walking that I have been doing.

I need to go eat lunch. I will be watching the fourth and final disc of the TV show Small Wonder. I remember watching the show when I was younger. Tonight I will be going to Trinity Baptist for small groups.

My prayer is that my path will be guided by God alone and that I can just step aside and allow God to work through my life.

Monday Morning…

19 Apr

I look at these years leading up to now as being prepared for the things to come.
Suppose that I were not to learn from the errors of my youth? I should learn from those experiences. The one thing that I have learned over these years that is vital is this: that if you focus on doing good that you will be less likely to do bad. I mean if you focus on the negative then that’s all you will see, but if you focus upon the light then you shall find hope. If you lose focus upon the Lord then you will sink.

I am just a person, no better than any other. I am not here to judge but to share what my God has done in my life. Maybe God has not given me everything that I have wanted but God has been so good to me.

Today I don’t know what I will do, though I do know that I am going to Trinity Baptist tonight. I need to finish the script that I have been writing so that I can focus on writing some shorter scripts and try to produce them locally.

The fear of the Lord
is the beginning of knowledge;
fools despise wisdom and discipline.[
Prov 1:7 (HCSB)

Happy is a man who finds wisdom
and who acquires understanding,
Prov 3:13 (HCSB)

Wisdom is supreme—so get wisdom.
And whatever else you get, get understanding.
Prov 4:7 (HCSB)

Command and teach these things. 12 Let no one despise your youth; instead, you should be an example to the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity. 13 Until I come, give your attention to public reading, exhortation, and teaching. 14 Do not neglect the gift that is in you; it was given to you through prophecy, with the laying on of hands by the council of elders. 15 Practice these things; be committed to them, so that your progress may be evident to all. 16 Pay close attention to your life and your teaching; persevere in these things, for by doing this you will save both yourself and your hearers.
1 Tim 4:11-16 (HCSB)

Sunday Night…

19 Apr

I am now an official member of the body of believers known as Trinity Baptist Church.

I am going to Trinity Tomorrow, Tuesday and Wednesday night.

Thursday is Ignite and Friday is House Church. I should be going to an event with Trinity Saturday night. Sunday I go to Trinity in the morning and then again in the evening. I am considering joining the hand bells at Trinity.

I am beginning to feel like part of a family and not an outsider. I do feel that Trinity is where I should worship.

Sunday Afternoon…

18 Apr

I think we all need to be reassured that God is in control. I mean if we’re no honest about our moments of doubt or moments of need then we will miss out on the opportunity for us to rely upon God’s power. I am in one of those moments in life where I need so much prayer and I need to just trust that God will bring me through this. I need to find work that is suitable to me. The filmmaking workshop on audio was great. I will share more about it later. Right now I am going to go eat so that I can go to Trinity Baptist Church. I joined that body of believers in their fellowship this morning. I am already beginning to feel like a part of the family. “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vineyard keeper. 2 Every branch in Me that does not produce fruit He removes, and He prunes every branch that produces fruit so that it will produce more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in Me, and I in you. Just as a branch is unable to produce fruit by itself unless it remains on the vine, so neither can you unless you remain in Me. 5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. The one who remains in Me and I in him produces much fruit, because you can do nothing without Me. 6 If anyone does not remain in Me, he is thrown aside like a branch and he withers. They gather them, throw them into the fire, and they are burned. 7 If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, ask whatever you want and it will be done for you. 8 My Father is glorified by this: that you produce much fruit and prove to be My disciples. Christlike Love 9 “As the Father has loved Me, I have also loved you. Remain in My love. 10 If you keep My commands you will remain in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commands and remain in His love. 11 “I have spoken these things to you so that My joy may be in you and your joy may be complete. 12 This is My command: Love one another as I have loved you. 13 No one has greater love than this, that someone would lay down his life for his friends. 14 You are My friends if you do what I command you. 15 I do not call you slaves anymore, because a slave doesn’t know what his master is doing. I have called you friends, because I have made known to you everything I have heard from My Father. 16 You did not choose Me, but I chose you. I appointed you that you should go out and produce fruit and that your fruit should remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He will give you. 17 This is what I command you: Love one another. John 15:1-17 (HCSB)

Sunday Afternoon…

18 Apr

I think we all need to be reassured that God is in control. I mean if we’re no honest about our moments of doubt or moments of need then we will miss out on the opportunity for us to rely upon God’s power. I am in one of those moments in life where I need so much prayer and I need to just trust that God will bring me through this. I need to find work that is suitable to me.

The filmmaking workshop on audio was great. I will share more about it later. Right now I am going to go eat so that I can go to Trinity Baptist Church. I joined that body of believers in their fellowship this morning.

I am already beginning to feel like a part of the family.

“I am the true vine, and My Father is the vineyard keeper. 2 Every branch in Me that does not produce fruit He removes, and He prunes every branch that produces fruit so that it will produce more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in Me, and I in you. Just as a branch is unable to produce fruit by itself unless it remains on the vine, so neither can you unless you remain in Me.
5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. The one who remains in Me and I in him produces much fruit, because you can do nothing without Me. 6 If anyone does not remain in Me, he is thrown aside like a branch and he withers. They gather them, throw them into the fire, and they are burned. 7 If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, ask whatever you want and it will be done for you. 8 My Father is glorified by this: that you produce much fruit and prove to be My disciples.
Christlike Love
9 “As the Father has loved Me, I have also loved you. Remain in My love. 10 If you keep My commands you will remain in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commands and remain in His love.
11 “I have spoken these things to you so that My joy may be in you and your joy may be complete. 12 This is My command: Love one another as I have loved you. 13 No one has greater love than this, that someone would lay down his life for his friends. 14 You are My friends if you do what I command you. 15 I do not call you slaves anymore, because a slave doesn’t know what his master is doing. I have called you friends, because I have made known to you everything I have heard from My Father. 16 You did not choose Me, but I chose you. I appointed you that you should go out and produce fruit and that your fruit should remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He will give you. 17 This is what I command you: Love one another.
John 15:1-17 (HCSB)

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