Archive | September, 2010

Tuesday Evening…

28 Sep

I have an interview this Thursday for a marketing company in Columbia. I don’t know how I will get to the interview. I don’t know how I will get to work if I do get the job. Most likely I will still move to California (North Hollywood) even if I get the job. If I get the job the move will be postponed. It’s not that I am that eager to move back to California. The thing is that I have been here 2 years and I am still unemployed with no car or a place of my own. If this were to change anytime very soon then I would rethink moving back. If I had my own place and a new car then I would most likely not move.

Monday Afternoon…

27 Sep

So, far I have no backers for my photo project. I am most likely going to move back to Los Angeles. An opportunity has become available for me to move back with a place to stay. I will have to find a job when I get there but it is not like I have had any opportunities here. I have been here almost 2 years now. I have been hopeful that I would be able to get a car somehow since you need a car here to get to work. I have also been hopeful about getting a place to live here. I have been hopeful that I would be able to find work here that would allow me to get my own place to live and a car. A small house and a good car. I should be moving very soon….

Sunday Evening…

26 Sep

I am trying to raise funds for a photo project. It will actually consist of many projects since the funds will be used to purchase the equipment needed. I have set up a profile on a web site to help raise the money: http://www.kickstarter.com/e/a7kLu/projects/1861795279/the-changing-landscape If I do not raise the entire amount I will not have any of the money. The money will only come to me if I raise the entire amount. The web site takes a percent as a fee: about 10%. If I am unable to raise the money I am considering whether or not to go to Church again, ever. I mean this shows what kind of people there are at Church. If they do not see the need to contribute to the Kingdom, does the Church as we know it know the Kingdom?

Thursday Afternoon…

23 Sep

I am trying to decide what to do. I am going to write and direct a TV Show. I am meeting with a couple of people that I know about helping me with this. I need more help with this. I am going to write a play, but this is secondary to the TV show. I will write 12 episodes and raise the funds needed to shoot all 12 locally if possible. I don’t know if I will apply for the AD program through the DGA or not. I would have to have a way to NY 3 times if I make it that far through the process. I would also need two recommendations for the application. I am planning on working on my web site to make it a site for the TV show. There will be more about that to come. I have been applying to a bunch of Jobs. I have received responses for a couple of them. One of them sounds promising but it is in NY. I need prayer and advice about so much.

Tuesday Afternoon…

21 Sep

I have no idea what to do. I have some things that I am working on like the play and the TV show, but I don’t know how I will do these things. I am meeting with a couple of people I know about the TV show and them helping with it. The play I am all on my own. I have asked for help with the play but I have not received any. I need a car if I am to find work here. Maybe I should move to NY. I would not need a car there. Of course the problem with that is how to move there and live there until I find work. I am tired of being single. I don’t want to go back to the way I was before. But I am so alone. I need to date or something. But how can I date with no car and no money. I am thankful for the help that I have received, but I need help that will enable me. I don’t know what to do. I have no one I can talk to that would have my interest at heart. People are always about what they can get out of you and what they think you should do. It’s never about what’s best for you. I am entering daily to win an apartment in NY and entering to win a house in upstate NY. One of these would be great to win. I need to a way to have my own place to stay.

Thursday Afternoon…

16 Sep

I have made some progress on the TV show idea. I am very hopeful about this project. I will have to find funding, but first I want to write the scripts so that I have something to show investors. I would not mind shooting scenes from the script just to have something to show, but when I shoot the actual show I want professional equipment and crew. I am planning on applying to the Assistant Training Program through the DGA (Director’s Guild). The application process involves going to NY for a test. If I make it past that there are two different interviews (NY) to go to. If I make it through these steps then I will have to move to NY for the program. I will not need a car. It says this on their site. I will be able to use public Transport. If the location is outside of the area covered by public transport then the production will arrange transport. I am excited about these things but I am depressed because both of these things are so uncertain.

Wednesday Afternoon…

15 Sep

I am currently working on a TV Show. My plan is to write and shoot an entire first season of an original TV Show. I plan to raise the money and shoot it locally using local talent and crew whenever possible. I am going to apply for the Assistant Training Program through the DGA. I will have to find a way to NY 3 times if I make it that far into the process. There are some events that I would love to attend: Actor Fest (NY and LA) (http://www.backstage.com/bso/actorfest/splash.html) Pitch Summit (http://www.inktippitchsummit.com/) Studio Pass Screenwriting Expo (http://www.screenwritingexpo.com/) I am going to work on the play I began writing but it will not be my main focus. Maybe if there was more support for it I would be more motivated to finish it. I need to do something. I am unable to find work suitable for me here. I have student loans to pay back. I would like to go back and finish my degree. I hate being single. I feel like I am on the verge of depression. I do thank God for what I do have. There is so much to be thankful for even when there’s so much stress.

Monday Afternoon…

13 Sep

I am focusing on writing and producing. I will be working on ideas for scripts and producing these projects. My goal is to find the funding and use the funding to buy the equipment instead of renting. I will use this equipment to shoot different projects. I am also considering the The New York Assistant Director Training Program (DGA). It will not be easy to get into this program, but it would be worth getting into. I would like to date. I mean I would like to meet women. But I know what types I am not interested in. I have not met many that I find attractive. I know that there is more than looks but that is where it begins.

Friday Afternoon…

10 Sep

God does indeed speak to us. The problem is that we do not always listen. When we do hear God speaking we do not always do what God says to do or not do what God says not to do. I know that I need to find work, a source of income, soon so that I can get my own place to live. I am not speaking of renting, but owning. I also need a car. A reliable car that has good gas mileage. I am going to begin writing some scripts. I have not forgotten the play. I will work on the play as things come to me. I am going to write some scripts and work towards producing and directing them here in South Carolina. I will work towards having a production company. I need prayer and help. I am also open to donations. I am going to a filmmaking workshop this Saturday at: USC Campus 214 McMaster College 1615 Senate Street Columbia, SC The workshop will be from 9:30 AM to 5 PM I am looking forward to the workshop. I don’t have any plans for afterwards. Sunday I will be going to the House Church in Irmo.

Thursday Afternoon…

9 Sep

So, I am sitting here thinking about what I could be doing. The problem is that I do not have the finances to do these things. I will go over some of the things that I want to do: 1. Photographer. I would love to travel and photograph (videographer as well) people and places. I just don’t have the gear. I am not interested in point and shoot cameras. I mean I want professional camera gear. I have had it in the past. Now I don’t due to thieves. That’s what happened to everything I had in California. Long Story. 2. Filmmaker. SO much equipment needed here. I would love to have my own production company. I would need the production and post-production equipment and space. 3. Writer. I would love to be able to travel and write. Maybe as a photographer/ videographer as well. 4. Actor. I have done this in the past. I am open to it, but it is not my top pick. I have been a paid photographer and actor. Anything else I am either not interested in or I would need more education to pursue. I am open to going back to school again, but I can only go back if all of the expenses are somehow covered. No loans and not working a full time job at the same time. I would like a car and a small house (own not rent). A furnished house. I am tired of people thinking that I am not good enough for anything. I have to remember that the only person that I have in my life is my mom. Without her I don’t know what I would have done. I have some friends, but none of them can really help me. I don’t know what to do. I just know that I am not going to give up. I will not give in to depression.