Archive | November, 2012

Thursday, December 29, 2012

29 Nov

I used my gift card at Red Lobster today. I had one of the salads with Salmon. It was great. I used my coupon for a free dessert to get a piece of cheesecake topped with strawberries.

Tonight I am going to The Hill. There was no Hill last week due to Thanksgiving.

I am very hopeful about several writing opportunities that I submitted to this week. I am also hopeful about several jobs that I applied to.

I went to a community lunch held at a Lutheran establishment yesterday. I had soup. It was good. I spoke with an elderly man and his wife. I was able to get some feedback from them about one of the writing opportunities that I submitted to.

I do realize that I will most likely have to find a way to move back to Los Angeles if I hope to find work.

I am single and have always been single. It’s not as though I want to remain single, but I have yet to meet someone. The one thing I will not do is rush myself to find someone just to find someone.

Wednesday, November 28th, 2012

28 Nov

I cannot believe that it is almost December, 2012, over 4 years since I left California, and I still do not have a job. I will take anything as long as it pays enough. I have to have enough to afford a car and a good place to live.

I have begun to focus on writing more. I hope to work even more on my writing now as well as do more reading.

I am hopeful that my writing will help me improve my situation. The debt to income situation: no income, massive debt…


26 Nov

I plan to write more scripts, including finishing the first season of “The Kelleys”.

I will also write short stories and maybe a novel or two.

I do not have a timeline for any of this, but i will organize my time to work on these various projects.

Monday, November 26, 2012

26 Nov

For the past few days I have been busy working on a proposal for an Amazon Studios project. It’s for a re-write of a script that someone submitted to Amazon.

I had to write the proposal and a script for a movie to show as an example of my writing ability. I have worked on the idea behind the script before and I have written the entire script before but I had to write this version of the script from nothing. It’s not the best script, but it’s not too bad for the fact that I wrote it in a few days.

I am going to focus more on my writing now that I have had a taste of writing again. I need to set deadlines for myself so that I will get something done.

I have no idea what I will do, but focusing on my writing is a start…

I can always use prayer concerning this and other areas of my life.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

20 Nov

Thanksgiving is almost here. I don’t know what I will be doing for Thanksgiving: not much of anything.

I have been looking for work for over 4 years without any success. I keep thinking that the next job that I apply to will be the one. I keep receiving reminders of my student debt.

Sunday was interesting. The Church met and the discussion was interesting. I found it interesting to find out that one person has a hard time communicating with people different from himself: everyone else. I love being a part of this group but most of the people have this attitude that they are different, better than, everyone else.

I have no idea what to do. I feel so alone. I have no one that I can talk with that does not have some agenda that drives any conversation. I find certain people annoying. I find that so many people are fake. I hope to be less fake in the future.

I need help finding work. These are some of the areas that I have training and experience in:

Screenwriting (including Television Writing)


Film and Video Crew

Video Camera Operating


Video and Photography editing

Small Jib Operating

Sound Editing

Boom Operator

Production Assistant

Graphics (not as much training and experience as the other items on this list)

Article and Creative Writing

Producing for Video Production

Writer’s Assistant

Screenplay Coverage

Story (Script) Editor

This list should give an idea of what jobs would be appropriate for me.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

18 Nov

The link above is my Yahoo! profile, where you will find some of my writing.

I have been so bored all day. I need to focus on my writing, but I spent most of today doing nothing. I am going to focus more on my writing and more time reading.

I am hopeful about ending life life as a single person soon enough. i am not in a rush but it would be great to not be single. I am looking for the right person, so I am not going to rush into anything…

Friday, November 16, 2012 Part Two

16 Nov

I sit here at the public library considering my life. I have no idea what I should do. I keep coming back to this them because it is very important. I consider all aspects of my life.

I consider my debt. I have too much debt from being a film student. How am I ever going to begin paying this off if I cannot find a job. Considering how much I owe I need to find a job that pays very well.

Considering my social life. I have never been on a real date. I have so many issues in the area of dating. I do not want to be single much longer, but I have no idea about dating. I do not get out much. There’s not much for me to do since I have no income and even if I did have an income what would I do? I do not like bars or clubs.

I do not have a car or my own place to live. I had a driver’s license when I lived in California but that has expired. If I were to go back to California all that I would need to do is take a written test. I do not know if I can, but I should be able to do that here in South Carolina. If I can get a driver’s license in California b taking a written test then I should be able to get one here in South Carolina by taking a written test. I could use help studying for the written test.

I try not to worry so much about what I cannot control, almost everything, but I do. I know that I need help. I have asked for help but I have not found any. I pray for help but there seems to be no answer to this prayer. Maybe I am wrong.

Friday, November 16, 2012

16 Nov

The Hill was good last night. We shared a meal afterwards. Next week there will be no Hill because of Thanksgiving.

I need to get back to reading and writing more.

I am hopeful about finding work. It will be strange for me when I do find a full-time job since I have never had a full-time job.

I intend to have a yard sale in the coming weeks. I would have it this Saturday but there’s a chance of rain.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

14 Nov

No job and no idea what to do. Nothing new here.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

13 Nov

The house Church met Sunday. It was good seeing and hearing from Saran after not hearing from her in so long. I cannot remember the last time we were able to Skype with her.

I sit here in the local library wondering what will happen. I could pretend to know what’s in store for the country based upon the elections but that would be idiotic. I cannot even guess at what I will be doing in the near future. I have no hope of finding a job anytime, anywhere, soon. I keep looking and I keep submitting hopeful that God will answer my prayers.

I know that I should keep praying and listening to God’s word. I shall not forget what God has brought me through and what God has brought me out of. In my own strength I was unable to overcome, but with God it was possible to move beyond the things of the past and things of the flesh. I do not claim to be perfect. I do claim that God has revealed so much over these past few years.

I had everything taken from me. I have made some decisions that were not so good. I went to 2 film schools that were good but not worth all of the trouble. Neither school has ever helped me find work. While attending the second school I had my professional Nikon DSLR camera stolen from me as well as other items. It was due to the lack in security at the apartments I resided. These apartments were through the school. The locks of the apartments were never changed and not all keys were returned when students moved from these apartments. The school did nothing to help with the fact that such expensive equipment had been stolen.

I know that if my my gear had not been stolen the events that took place years afterwards would have been different. It’s one thing to make mistakes, such as going to film schools of lesser quality but to have such help with the ruin of one’s life is another things. At least I went to a film school and not a school that has a “film” program like some schools in South Carolina and other places that schools claim to be film schools but are anything but.

I have a large amount of debt as a result of being a student. I have no one helping me with this. I have no one to ask for guidance in this matter. The only thing I can do is pray and ask for prayer concerning this massive debt. With the amount I owe at the moment, increasing daily due to interest and fees, I could buy a new house and a new car. Not just any house but a very nice house and furnish it. I would also have money left over.
I have tried to using crowd funding to replace my photography equipment but that has not been successful. I have asked for help but I have found none. I would like to replace the things stolen from me. I know that some of the things can never be replaced, but I would like to replace the things that can be replaced.

I am looking at having a yard sale this Saturday. This will provide some money that I need. It will not be enough to replace any pf my photo gear but it will be money to live off of. I am not receiving any sort of financial support from the government. I am not receiving any form of charity from any organization. One reason I will never give to “Charity” organizations is that I have seen how they are selective about helping people. I could never support any group that only helps certain people.

If you are an organization or a part of an organization like this please prove me wrong. I need help. Is there any group willing to help me?