Wednesday, March 27, 2024
I keep thinking about my writing and how much I want to do with my writing.
The problem is getting myself to sit down and write. The problem is getting myself to focus on my writing.
I have so many things that I would like to do and so many things that I am constantly thinking about.
Most days I do not do more than my daily routine because I become overwhelmed by all the possibilities. All of the thoughts in my head.
I have no idea what to do. I think of things I could do but I do not know how to achieve these goals.
I have no one to go to for advice. I am trying to figure out so many things on my own.
I was thinking about sex. I was thinking about the idea of sex.
I’ve had sex.
I was thinking about my penis inside of a guy. A part of me was inside of his body. I like the feeling of being inside of him. I like the feeling of my penis pulling out of him and going back inside of him.
I also like the feeling of his penis going inside of me. I like the feeling as the tip penetrates me.
I think back to the times I’ve had sex.
I think back to the times I’ve sucked a dick or had someone suck my dick.
I remember times when older men would suck my cock. I would, at times, look at them as they consumed me. I would watch their head go up and down. I would watch my cock as they took it into their mouth.
I recall being beneath a guy. I wrapped my legs around his body. His penis was inside of me. I pulled my body against his body because I wanted him.
There have only been a few times in which I wanted the guy I was with. The old men I only wanted them to suck my cock and leave. The guys my age who I was attracted to I wanted more. I wanted a relationship but I had no idea how to begin a relationship with anyone. I was afraid of rejection because I’d asked a couple of guys to be more than friends.
I like being next to a guy I am attracted to. I like to play with his nipples. I enjoy licking and kissing his body. I like nibbling on his ears. I enjoy sex.
I miss sex. I want sex and I want a relationship.
The problem is finding a guy who I am attracted to who is attracted to me.
How do you know you are attracted to someone?
I have a mental checklist, not a complete checklist at the moment, but things I would look for in a potential boyfriend.
I would need to want to spend time with him.
I would have to want to have sex with him.
There are other things I look for in a guy.
I could never know if I was attracted to a guy until I spent time with him.
He would have to have a nice cock.
Poem:
Slow days while dreaming of a time long gone.
I imagine you then.
I imagine you now.
I wonder if I ever knew you so well.
I asked you but your reply was no.
I don’t know what we had but I loved those hours.
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