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Sunday, May 05, 2024

I have not done much today.

I do not know what I will do today.

I want a life. I need my life to begin.

I often wonder if I am attractive enough for anyone. I wonder if anyone would be attracted to my body. I wonder if my cock is big enough. I wonder if I am good enough.

I’m Genderfluid. I’m nonbinary. I’m Bigender. I Genderqueer. I’m not a boy or a girl. I’m a boy and I’m a girl.

I wasted so many years of my life on false religion. I know the Truth now. I know the lies I was told for so many years. I will not be fooled again.

I’m versatile. I do not play the girl role in a relationship. I do not play the boy in a relationship. I have never had a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend. I need a boyfriend to ride my cock. I need a boyfriend so I can ride his cock.

I have found a few Transmen attractive, but I’m still figuring out what that means for me.

I’m not attracted to all guys.

I want a boyfriend. At the moment, my goal is to find a cute, fit, cis boy.

Dreams fill my mind

remind me of my fictitious life

lived each night.

One night we met,

sat in the living room,

kissed and talked

until I went down

and sucked your cock.

In my mind, I live that moment again.

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Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography:

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⁠⁠Another Day, Another Podcast⁠⁠

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⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87⁠⁠

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⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sJ3MSddoSw ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://vimeo.com/240788065⁠⁠

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Sunday, April 28, 2024

28 Apr

Sunday, April 28, 2024

I have something to do tomorrow and Wednesday.

I am considering places I could go to meet a potential boyfriend. I want a first boyfriend.

I keep thinking about what my life would be like if I had a boyfriend.

I have been exercising more recently. I plan to exercise throughout the day on most days.

I hope to have a life soon.

I stare at the ceiling, stars stuck to the ceiling,

one planet remaining hanging from a string,

at night I would watch them glow faintly.

One night years ago,

in another room,

in another state,

I was on my bed

with him inside of me.

I recall the feeling

of his cock,

I recall the feeling of him

sliding into me.

I stare at the computer screen

thinking back to when

I was not always alone

and wish someone

to push into me.

I love the feeling of a guy sucking my cock. I like his mouth on my cock. I like it when he takes my cock into his mouth. I like the feeling when I finish while in his mouth.

A few times, I had a crush on someone older than me. Most of them were when I was a child and I had crushes on older boys. A couple of times after turning 13 I had crushes on older men.

What if people stopped telling children about religion and waited until they were 13 to begin telling them about religion? Wait until they enter adulthood to tell them about religion.

Once I was with a guy and I was so tired. It was not unusual for me to meet with a guy after spending hours talking with different guys. By the time I met with him, I was tired.

I was behind him. He was leaning across my bed. I was inside of him. I do not believe that I fell asleep but close to falling asleep.

It was not the guy. I liked the guy. He was cute and fit.

He told me to go faster.

I went faster.

I only met him once. I wish I could have met him more often. I wish that he could have become my boyfriend.

https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠

⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠

Poems and Photography:

⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠

Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography:

⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠

⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠

⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠

https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171

https://neobook.org/jason29171

⁠⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠⁠

⁠https://publicfast.com?deal=jason71⁠

⁠⁠https://www.fjasonphoto.com/⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/Z6P9332V8VAW?ref_=wl_share⁠⁠

⁠⁠Another Day, Another Podcast⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://gurushots.com/jasonwhitaker29171/photos⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://youtube.com/@jason29171⁠⁠

video editing:

⁠⁠https://youtu.be/-zz6ZQOFQes⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sJ3MSddoSw ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://vimeo.com/240788065⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCJvaILKxZQ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWaIExlNM-Q⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://youtu.be/hnAKWgofsK8⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://soundcloud.com/f-jason-whitaker⁠⁠

Tags: #alllivesmatter, #blog #writer #SouthCarolina #LGBT #LGBTWriter #Filmmaker #photographer #actor, #Gayboy, #gaywriter, #genderqueer, #lgbtqlivesmatter, #lgbtWriter, #love, #Queer, #southCarolina, erotica, Fiction, short-story, writing, young adult

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Saturday, April 27, 2024

27 Apr

Saturday, April 27, 2024

I feel tired.

I did laundry today.

I do not know what I will do tomorrow.

I will be busy on Monday and Wednesday.

I want a boyfriend. He should be between 5’2 and 5’6. He needs to be about my size. I am looking for a LTR.

I’m somewhat hopeful about my life getting better soon.

I have sucked dick a few times. I am particular about sucking cock. I will not suck a penis that smells bad or looks weird. I have to be in the mood to suck a dick.

I am versatile but I will only bottom for some. I will no longer top for anyone either. I mean anyone as in I am selective about who I top. I am more selective now than I have been in the past. I am also not interested in old men sucking my cock.

There is so much variety when it comes to cocks. Just because I like dick doesn’t mean I want any dick. I have no interest in giant dicks. If they are so big, they will not go anywhere near any opening on my body.

I’ve heard the music, the magic in the chords

played together,

words sang together,

and the sounds hit me

like I’m feeling the same feelings

as the song is giving.

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Poems and Photography:

⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠

Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography:

⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠

⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠

⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠

https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171

https://neobook.org/jason29171

⁠⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠⁠

⁠https://publicfast.com?deal=jason71⁠

⁠⁠https://www.fjasonphoto.com/⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/Z6P9332V8VAW?ref_=wl_share⁠⁠

⁠⁠Another Day, Another Podcast⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://gurushots.com/jasonwhitaker29171/photos⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://youtube.com/@jason29171⁠⁠

video editing:

⁠⁠https://youtu.be/-zz6ZQOFQes⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sJ3MSddoSw ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://vimeo.com/240788065⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCJvaILKxZQ⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWaIExlNM-Q⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://youtu.be/hnAKWgofsK8⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171⁠⁠

⁠⁠https://soundcloud.com/f-jason-whitaker⁠⁠

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Wednesday, March 27, 2024

27 Mar

Wednesday, March 27, 2024

I keep thinking about my writing and how much I want to do with my writing.

The problem is getting myself to sit down and write. The problem is getting myself to focus on my writing.

I have so many things that I would like to do and so many things that I am constantly thinking about.

Most days I do not do more than my daily routine because I become overwhelmed by all the possibilities. All of the thoughts in my head.

I have no idea what to do. I think of things I could do but I do not know how to achieve these goals.

I have no one to go to for advice. I am trying to figure out so many things on my own.

I was thinking about sex. I was thinking about the idea of sex.

I’ve had sex.

I was thinking about my penis inside of a guy. A part of me was inside of his body. I like the feeling of being inside of him. I like the feeling of my penis pulling out of him and going back inside of him.

I also like the feeling of his penis going inside of me. I like the feeling as the tip penetrates me.

I think back to the times I’ve had sex.

I think back to the times I’ve sucked a dick or had someone suck my dick.

I remember times when older men would suck my cock. I would, at times, look at them as they consumed me. I would watch their head go up and down. I would watch my cock as they took it into their mouth.

I recall being beneath a guy. I wrapped my legs around his body. His penis was inside of me. I pulled my body against his body because I wanted him.

There have only been a few times in which I wanted the guy I was with. The old men I only wanted them to suck my cock and leave. The guys my age who I was attracted to I wanted more. I wanted a relationship but I had no idea how to begin a relationship with anyone. I was afraid of rejection because I’d asked a couple of guys to be more than friends.

I like being next to a guy I am attracted to. I like to play with his nipples. I enjoy licking and kissing his body. I like nibbling on his ears. I enjoy sex.

I miss sex. I want sex and I want a relationship.

The problem is finding a guy who I am attracted to who is attracted to me.

How do you know you are attracted to someone?

I have a mental checklist, not a complete checklist at the moment, but things I would look for in a potential boyfriend.

I would need to want to spend time with him.

I would have to want to have sex with him.

There are other things I look for in a guy.

I could never know if I was attracted to a guy until I spent time with him.

He would have to have a nice cock.

Poem:

Slow days while dreaming of a time long gone.

I imagine you then.