Sunday, April 28, 2024

28 Apr

I have something to do tomorrow and Wednesday.

I am considering places I could go to meet a potential boyfriend. I want a first boyfriend.

I keep thinking about what my life would be like if I had a boyfriend.

I have been exercising more recently. I plan to exercise throughout the day on most days.

I hope to have a life soon.

I stare at the ceiling, stars stuck to the ceiling,

one planet remaining hanging from a string,

at night I would watch them glow faintly.

One night years ago,

in another room,

in another state,

I was on my bed

with him inside of me.

I recall the feeling

of his cock,

I recall the feeling of him

sliding into me.

I stare at the computer screen

thinking back to when

I was not always alone

and wish someone

to push into me.

I love the feeling of a guy sucking my cock. I like his mouth on my cock. I like it when he takes my cock into his mouth. I like the feeling when I finish while in his mouth.

A few times, I had a crush on someone older than me. Most of them were when I was a child and I had crushes on older boys. A couple of times after turning 13 I had crushes on older men.

What if people stopped telling children about religion and waited until they were 13 to begin telling them about religion? Wait until they enter adulthood to tell them about religion.

Once I was with a guy and I was so tired. It was not unusual for me to meet with a guy after spending hours talking with different guys. By the time I met with him, I was tired.

I was behind him. He was leaning across my bed. I was inside of him. I do not believe that I fell asleep but close to falling asleep.

It was not the guy. I liked the guy. He was cute and fit.

He told me to go faster.

I went faster.

I only met him once. I wish I could have met him more often. I wish that he could have become my boyfriend.

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